Support your friend’s dreams. If they fail, you still supported them. If they succeed, you always believed in them. Otherwise, even when they succeed, it won’t feel like a victory that can be shared with you. And if they fail, they’ll feel like they disappointed you most. Support dreams, because there’s already so little passion in the world and so few of us go for the life we always wanted.
I START GRAD SCHOOL TONIGHT.
Woo! That’s exciting. & a little bit scary. It’s making me think about and question a lot of things, which I’m going to process through here. Cool?
1. All of the sudden I want to move. Like out-of-state, or at least to the other side of it. It’s pretty much been since I accepted my offer of admission. & of course, I’ve never really wanted to move anywhere until I committed myself to a two-year and eight months program. & I’m sure I still wouldn’t be itching to if I hadn’t. Bit still. You mean I can’t leave the Metro-Detroit area? What if something comes up?? The whole idea makes me feel a little bit irrationally claustrophobic.
2. Is this whole thing a cop-out? I’m so good at making anything I decide to do sound good that I’ve become bad at determining what an actual good thing is. I wanted to go to Wayne State University. I envisioned living downtown or at least becoming more familiar with Detroit as my life would inevitable start to revolve more around the city. There are exciting things to be a part of happening there, you know? That was the ideal. That was the dream I had when I first heard the “go get your masters” from God. But Wayne State is hard to get into at the graduate level and I didn’t even try. Spring Arbor University is easy to get into at the graduate level, so here I am. & truth be told, I am a little bit disappointed in myself.
3. But does it even matter? Even if I settled for Spring Arbor instead of really choosing it, I’m convinced that God can use my time there for good. Also, God didn’t tell me to go to Wayne State. He told me to get my masters in counseling. He didn’t give me a school. I think that most of the time He gives us a lot of freedom to choose things for ourselves and that stepping outside of his will isn’t as easy as we think it is. I think that what He wants for us often has more to do with the big picture than individual, “this or that” decisions. So I’ll probably continue to wonder what going to school in Downtown Detroit would have been like & wish for a real campus instead of the office building where I’ll attend classes, but I’m not worried about not being where God wants me because I’m doing what He’s called me to do.
4. I haven’t actually been in school in a long time. I also don’t think I’ve fully mentally accepted how much work this is going to be. I am super excited to learn the things I’m going to be learning, but getting back into school mode might be interesting [& great because I love school mode and I’ve spent the last couple of years envying people who I see studying in coffee shops].